GLEE! and Dennys

So on Wednesday night, I went to a glee ice cream party over at kateys house. I work with her and in alot of ways she reminds me of my sister, chelsea. Being around her makes me miss my sister sooooo badly! They are both beautiful and free spirited and full of life! I love chelsea.

Ashley,(blonde) was there and Ashley Spencer was there and Aaron stellarini who is actaully everything that a southern gentleman is made out to be in all those movies and romance novels except his not southern , he's from tulsa. But still it puzzles me how anyone, not born and raised in the South can be that way. He's also super mature for his age! and very perceptive which frustrates me because He tells exactly what I don't want to hear.

Life Is Good,

Ray Ray- my best friend was at the party. ahhh rayray! THE DINGO ATE YOUR BABEY!

Mcdonalds was really really good.... I haven't eaten mcdonalds since I have been down here. whoah! lol =]

so we drop people off in my car and then I go driving around with no real sense of purpose or direction. Just driving to drive. purely for the purpose of talking, thinking and reflecting. Anad HOLY COW! what do you know? the car infront of us breaks down with a flat tire. The southern gentleman pulls over and immediatly goes to work on asking her for assistance and instantly he was looking for her car jack. It was a haitain lady who spoke hardly any english, but we managed to help her as best we could. My emergency kit came in handy! BIGTIME! thank you so much mom and dad... I am pretty sure without the flashlight and the reflective thingy we would have gotten hit.. we spend an hour working on the tire and could not get it off. she calls her daughter and with oil stained hands we packed up and got my in my cruiser to leave. lifeis good. God is always good

The oil somehow traveled from the far creavices of my fingernails and uncallaused hands to my face in one ginormus glob on the side of my cheek... which I decided to rock the rest of the night. Aaron and what looked like a tiger claw mark on his face, which was odd because I don't recall there being any wildlife.

anyway dennys was good
came home
and I am fixing to start my new book.
eat.pray.love.

Fistful of Glitter In the Air? please someone

I am sitting in bed, listening to When Its Over by 3 doors down and feeling pretty down
I am sure in the morning I will be back to my normally perky self
but tonight I am going to do something I rarely do,
Indulge myself and my sorrowful, sad, miserable feelings
then I will bounce back to be the same person I normally portray myself to be..... but
not tonight


I would really like to be able to relate some kind of supremely magical and ahmazing story from work from the past two days. I got nothing.

like living. I have sometimes been wildly, despairingly, acutely miserable, racked with sorrow, but through it all I still know quite certainly that just to be alive is a grand thing. ♥

As I indulge myself in the saddest array of music that i can think of to find, I reflect on my life and come to the conclusion that it is a HOT MESS... I am no where near to where I want to be.. but life is a process and nothing comes immediatly

I am really to sad/homesick/hurt to blog ... I cannot really put everything into words

all day its been threatining to rain and I challenged myself to not cry, and now that I have allowed myself to release what emotions I have, the weather has decided to mimic my decision and to pour rain.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3stsDXki__U

Its a sad day when you look in the mirror and you don't even recognize yourself.
I have no heart to blog tonight

Ill leave you with a quote


Summing up, it is clear the future holds great opportunities. It also holds pitfalls. The trick will be to avoid the pitfalls, seize the opportunities, ~Woody Allen, "My Speech to the Graduates," Side Effects, 1980

My days off!!!

So I had worked 22 days straight!
lets think about this for a second...22 days straight! some of those days were 14 hours or more a day! ahh I barely slept, hardly ate, all I did was work work work !
But my paycheck STILL sucked

and I finally get a day off.. sort of... I have class which, was alright it was just..class
then I went to EPCOT! =] the flower and garden show was amazing! I went by myself though which was interesting...

There is something so relaxing about just sitting on a monorail by yourself listening to your ipod and people watching until your ipod battery goes dead. Honestly I think I needed time to myself. So during this time of great serenity, previously never listened to songs become the ones that you have on replay because they are just so painfully truthful that you didn't listen to them before because of the truth that they scream. Toby Lightman and Jack Johnson might have read my diary before releasing their albums... no joke.

I had a crepe from france. It was really good the chocolate sauce was to die for.. but the taste was tainted by the fact that I did NOT receive a Disney Discount and there for spent an entire hours wages on a triangle of pancake with 2 teaspoons of heresheys syrup slapped on top of it.

keep moving forward...

Went back to the room and crashed went shopping, went to IHOP went to M&M world and the highlight of my next day off would be Wilderness lodge which, yes, o yes, I will stay at before I leave because it is breathtakingly gorgeous. So my friend boy, Daniel and I went on a sea rayder ride =] it was fun =] then mickey's retreat then his apartment then mine alone.

stay? sugarland?

then yesterday was back to the mouse's house.
work went by quickly, I saw High School Musical perform like 5 times! =]
danced in the parade, made some magic, took pictures, NICKKKKK hid my lunch from me in toilet paper roles, haitans haitans haitans, almost got arrested, ray ray , adreniline, life!

So I need to get started on my list of things to do
Parasail
Cirque De soleil
Wishes from Polynesian
Beach
Dolphin Swimming
Blizzard beach and/or typhoon lagoon
Star wars weekend
Gatorland
TITANIC the experience
i'd like some more suggestions


alsoooo, working a convention tonight! lets hope for some freakin freee foood!

Wear high heels when I excercise.. Meet Savannah

WHOAHHHH RELATIONSHIPSSSS

relationshits... ahh what AM I DOING WITH MY LIFE? I left my long time boyfriend of 2 and a half years while I was on this program, lots of reasons that I don't feel like letting the world read compelled me to do this, but I felt like I had to.

and now... I feel like I've missed out on some ****STELLAR*** people that maybe I should have spent more time with and not negleted and hurt... relationships are crazy
I'm the other girl
I'm that girl
I'm the girl
I'm the one
I'm who you're talking about

ahhh it just doesn't seem like me
like I can't decide how to split my time
there are so many great people
aaron, daniel, saury, dan, kevin, tj, stephen, kentraile, deontay, billy, rayray I have had so many great experiences with everyone,

ahh my love life... its a series of songs
you belong with me- taylor swift
not that girl-wicked
whatdoya want from me-
meet virginia-
and omg sooo many more

but to everyone
its mainly this song

lessons learned - carrrie underwood

There's some things that I regret,
Some words I wish had gone unsaid,
Some starts,
That had some better endings,
Been some bad times I've been through,
Damage I cannot undo.
Some things,
I wish I could do all all over again,
There's mistakes that I have made,
Some chances I just threw away,
Some roads,
I never should have taken,
Been some signs I didn't see,
Hearts that I hurt needlessly,
nd all the things that break you,
Are the things that make you strong!
You can't change the past,
Cause it's gone.
And you just gotta move on,
Because it's all
Lessons learned.

And every tear that had to fall from my eyes,
From everyday I wondered how I'd get through the night,
From every change, life has thrown me.
I'm thankful, for every break in my heart,
I'm grateful, for every scar,
Some pages turned,
Some bridges burned,
But there were lessons learned,

LIFESTYLE

So lets talk about living.
just the everyday getting up and breathing or the struggle to do so

As a proud southern girl, I pride myself (maybe to much) on my ability to manage my time and my life, however, Disney has managed to completely and totally humble me and bring me to my knees, which isn't a bad thing when the Good Lord is involved. I needed it, but Lorda mercy! I didn't realize how HARD it was going to be.
But as is typical of my personality, I never let anything get me down for any extended length of time. There is wayyyy too much good in life to focus on anything negative!

But lets say the busses suckk! I drive to work on most days.. because like they break down all the time and they are also late all the time

The parks... yeah they are my playground! 24/7 365! ahhh I could get use to this very easily

prices are high
gas is high
half of the cp's are high
the others are drunk
or just like me... having a great time.. the safer way! =]]]

so lifestyle is ahmazing and super addictive
from the mountains to middle florida
good Lord, what a shocker!
but I gotta admit I'm in love with it a little bit!

SHOWKEEPER! NOT custodial!

So I work at Disney's Hollywood Studios! (represeeeeentttt)!!!

I am a SHOWKEEPER!
My job title: Shoekeeper
Job Description: I work with the shows, other than that I can't really say much... I'm tied down by a very strict contract which restricts what I am authorized to say!

Job Perks: Free admission to all parks (as if we had time! HA!), random magical moments, pin trading, parade performances , pre and post parade and fantasmic entertainment, great co workers, amazing experiences, behind the scenes tours, celebrity encounters.

Job Downers- 14 hour days, smallest amount of hourly pay on property, disgusting-sticky situations, physical exhaustion, hateful managers and co-ordinaters, expensive food in break room, drama drama drama, getting hit by brooms, guests look down on all of us all the time.

B U T W A I T !!!! Let me say that I loveee my job! I do! I love the people I love the work I love the Studios... like most things its a love hate relationship. but I really reallly love my job!

I also pick up shift around other parks as QSR food and beverage and audience control and just about anything else! some weeks I have 64 hours or more! whew!

Vista Way.. Thissa way

I should've been blogging from day one but I didn't so I am a little behind the game...

This is going to be a quick overview....
Disney has 4 housing complexs. Commons, Patterson Court, Chatham Square, and Vista Way

lets explore them a bit...
THE COMMONS- never been there but I hear its boring. This is for mostly ICPS or International College Program students, or those disney employees who are not from around these parts. =] They have garages for their cars, which is retarded since they aren't even from our country. Why are they the ONLY housing to get garages? THEY DIDNT DRIVE OVER HERE! ahh so frustrating


Patterson Court- Like the Waldorf of Disney... free car washes... real appliances... patios, carpet, no bugs, mold , OR anything to do... boring ;)

Chatham square- Haven't actually been inside an apartment there yet, but from what I hear they are a step down from patterson but like 2 flights of stairs above vista way

Home Sweet Home- VISTA WAYYY---- HEYYY OOOOO HEEEEYYYY OOOO vista way vista layvistawayvistalay... yeah ok so I live in the Projects of disney. the ultimate ghetto, we have mold,bugs galore, rarely working appliances, and military beds.. but for all that sucks about vista .. let me tell you .. i would live NO WHERE ELSE!!! there is always something to do, the hot tub is always a gathering place.. apartment doors are never closed to those in need of a friend or a good time =] and the mood of everyone is amazing! =] my heart lies in vista way and I would live no where else, I love it truly I do